And if I...

You still there?
Get out of here!!!Leave me alone!!!
Forget me, it's not my time...
I have so wonderfull things now...
I don't remember what, but I have...
Anger is normal now,
I'm living a desperate time,
but soon this thoughts will leave!
This silly thoughts...
I have great friends,
I have a beautifull house...
I know I'm crying,
I know that I am lost
and suffer so much pain...
but it's not my time...yet...
Oh my God...I cannot stop crying...
I have so much pain inside...
I know that I have silly thoughts but...
hurt so much...
I'm feeling so bad..
My soul is in suffer...
I cry but I can't scream...
I scream inside...
hurt so bad...
I'm alone...
and I never feel so alone in my life...